Sometime you really do, do it all by yourself
First I want to start out by saying that I have the most hard-working, love-his-family, wants nothing but the best for his family, husband. And I appreciate him more than he will ever know and feel like I am the luckiest woman to have him!
This past week I have just felt so overwhelmed. I just don't know what to do. With Brad working like 20 jobs (it's actually only 3, not including the ones he doesn't get a pay stub for). I am always home with Sammie, doing everything around the house, and I am always be myself. I get done with work, rush home to get Sammie, get her settled in, let the dogs out, feed the dogs...and then if she is still content: I wash the bottles, make the bottles, do laundry, make dinner, run the dishwasher, unload the dishwasher, put the clothes in the dryer, feed Sammie. Don't let Sammie take a nap to make sure she sleeps through the night (which doesn't always work) keep her occupied, fold the laundry, take care of Sammie because it is finally 8:00, so she can sleep now and eat her last bottle, hopefully put her done for bed so I can at least talk to my husband that day, go to the bathroom and it the sack because I usually have to get up with her around 5:30 to do it all again the next day.
Normally this doesn't bother me, but I see Brad for like 3 hours a week. He gets up at 5:00 goes to Reigstads, then he goes to his 2nd job till 9 or 10, then gets home a works on the side jobs that people have asked him to do and he always says yes because the money is nice. I NEVER see my husband. I miss him so much just writing this is making me teary eyed. I just wish we would win a butt load of money so he wouldn't have to work so much. Did you know that he is currently working 4 jobs right now. Luckily he doesn't work for the school during the summer. Plus on top of those jobs he is getting wood and pumpkins ready for the fall to bring in some extra money. I have NEVER known a person to be this dedicated to his family. It just breaks my heart that I never get to see him and the he has to work this hard. We had a hard time carving out some time to spend together for our anniversary that is next week. Sad. I just appreciate him so, so much.
I feel like we are taking on the world and it just keep throwing more crap at us. Did I mention the he had to fix the radiator on his truck. Did that work...of course not, now we have to scrap up the money so we can fix his motor...AHHHHH It is always something...
I feel better now that I wrote this though...just a little though...
Posted in: on Wednesday, June 9, 2010 at at 10:36 AM 1 comments
