Life is Beautiful!

First I want to start out by saying that I have the most hard-working, love-his-family, wants nothing but the best for his family, husband. And I appreciate him more than he will ever know and feel like I am the luckiest woman to have him!

This past week I have just felt so overwhelmed. I just don't know what to do. With Brad working like 20 jobs (it's actually only 3, not including the ones he doesn't get a pay stub for). I am always home with Sammie, doing everything around the house, and I am always be myself. I get done with work, rush home to get Sammie, get her settled in, let the dogs out, feed the dogs...and then if she is still content: I wash the bottles, make the bottles, do laundry, make dinner, run the dishwasher, unload the dishwasher, put the clothes in the dryer, feed Sammie. Don't let Sammie take a nap to make sure she sleeps through the night (which doesn't always work) keep her occupied, fold the laundry, take care of Sammie because it is finally 8:00, so she can sleep now and eat her last bottle, hopefully put her done for bed so I can at least talk to my husband that day, go to the bathroom and it the sack because I usually have to get up with her around 5:30 to do it all again the next day.
Normally this doesn't bother me, but I see Brad for like 3 hours a week. He gets up at 5:00 goes to Reigstads, then he goes to his 2nd job till 9 or 10, then gets home a works on the side jobs that people have asked him to do and he always says yes because the money is nice. I NEVER see my husband. I miss him so much just writing this is making me teary eyed. I just wish we would win a butt load of money so he wouldn't have to work so much. Did you know that he is currently working 4 jobs right now. Luckily he doesn't work for the school during the summer. Plus on top of those jobs he is getting wood and pumpkins ready for the fall to bring in some extra money. I have NEVER known a person to be this dedicated to his family. It just breaks my heart that I never get to see him and the he has to work this hard. We had a hard time carving out some time to spend together for our anniversary that is next week. Sad. I just appreciate him so, so much.
I feel like we are taking on the world and it just keep throwing more crap at us. Did I mention the he had to fix the radiator on his truck. Did that work...of course not, now we have to scrap up the money so we can fix his motor...AHHHHH It is always something...
I feel better now that I wrote this though...just a little though...

Posted in: on Wednesday, June 9, 2010 at at 10:36 AM 1 comments  

My first mother's day was wonderful. Brad got me flowers and a card. we went out with my family for brunch and his family for dinner. But the best part was getting to take a nap! Oh was the heaven!

Saturday I put in overtime at work. I figured I might as well as long as I can. Lord knows we could use the money! So I was so tired from staying up late Friday night and then working again on Saturday that I wasn't able to make it to Josh and Lynsie's for game night. I really wanted to go, I love hanging out with my friends! But I didn't want to push myself to far, you know.

Friday was the Taylor Swift concert and it ROCKED! I want to go to another so bad. We didn't have floor seats but that was okay because the concert was totally awesome anyways! Gloriana and Kellie Pickler opened for Taylor and they were awesome. The whole thing was awesome! Thanks mom for being able to score those tickets! Love you lots! :)

So I finally got fed up with the last 10 lbs I have to lose and not having an close to wear so I started weight watchers online a week ago. It is actually going great. I thought it would be hard but it isn't. Plus I get bonus points to use for the week for whatever I want! They believe in treating yourself! I like that motto! I have my first weigh in tomorrow, so we will see how that goes! It isn't actually a weight...I just go down to receiving and weigh myself! I don't feel deprived from food at all and I always get full. Brad is being really supportive of me so I think that makes it easier for me. He always checks the box for me and makes sure I get the right portion so I don't go over my point for the day. Then when I get this down, I am going to start exercising and Brad said he would do that with me to. I didn't want to overwhelm myself by making myself to do much at once. I know I would just give up on it all that way. So step by step.

Sammie is so fricking adorable it isn't even funny. She talks non stop to anyone who will listen! She even has to take a break from eating to talk. It so cute! Yesterday at appleebee's all the waitresses came over to tell us how cute she was and then 2 other families stop by the table to tell me and Brad that if we ever wanted to give her up they would take her! she is just so cute!

Posted in: on Monday, May 10, 2010 at at 1:07 PM 0 comments  

Now that I am back to work I can start blogging on a regular basis! (please hold you applause!)

So what's new with me...lots! I am back to work now, have been for 2 1/2 weeks now. Boy, was that first week rough and I mean rough. I was emotionally exhausted from crying and missing Sammie. Physically exhausted because I wasn't used to doing much through out the day other than taking care of Sammie and when she napped I had the option to take a nap. I wasn't used to getting up and the same time everyday anymore and boy did that time get early. Not only did I change my schedule to be done earlier, I had to plan extra time in the morning for Sammie just in case she needed to be feed or just wanted to be held. Going back to work was a huge change in my life. But all in all I am glad to be back to work. I think it makes it easier knowing she isn't at a daycare facility, that she is just with our neighbor Renee 3 days a week, with Brad 1, and with Pam 1 day.

I found out last week that we can put in overtime, so I am torn between the extra money(which we can definitely use) and rushing home to Sammie. I have been putting in around 5 hours a week of overtime. Every little bit helps.

Sammie is adjusting well to being at Renee's. She loves her little girl Aubrey! I almost think it was more rough on me than her! The first week she would be awake all day, heaven forbid she miss out on anything, so she would sleep all night from the time I got home till the time I got her up the next day, except to eat!

This week for mother's day, mom and I are getting our pedicures on Thursday. Then Friday Megan and I get to go to Taylor Swift concert. YAHHHHH! I am so ridiculously excited! Plus we get free parking at Brad's work! Bonus!

That's all for now. My breaks is over. But don't worry I have lots more to catch you up on!

Posted in: on Tuesday, May 4, 2010 at at 1:22 PM 4 comments  

I know that it has been over a month since I wrote a blog, but to be fair I did just have a baby! So being a mommy is the best thing ever! I knew that I was ready to be a mom and have kids but I never thought I could love anyone this way. It is a different kind of love for what I have for Brad, I can't really explain it. Samantha is the most amazing little person every. She has such a personality, she has had it from birth. She hardly ever fusses and is smiling and making the weirdest faces. She likes to sleep with her arms up over her head, which I thought was weird but I woke up the other night sleeping the same way she does.
It was a little hard for me the first day Brad went back to work last Wednesday. I called him crying because I couldn't do it by myself. Which of course I can! I think I was just overwhelmed and extremely tired.
She has sleeps really well at night. She goes to bed between 8 and 10 and sleeps for four hours at a time. We really only get up with her once at night and then again around 5. So not bad for a newborn, eh.
My first outing with her by myself was a little scary. She had an appointment at 9:50 and I wanted to leave the house at 9:15 but as soon as I put her in her car seat she started crying. Which of course broke my heart. Needless to say we didn't leave until 9:30. She did really good. I did really good!
She can sleep through anything...the dogs barking, loud noises, being passed around from person to person. She really is an incredible baby.
Brad has been an amazing father and husband. I couldn't imagine going through any of this without him.

What else... I really miss my friends. I mean really, really, really miss them. It is like not seeing my family. I find myself reading their blogs and facebooks and find all these things going on in their lives that I no idea.

Some days I go stir crazy from being inside all day. But I really don't have anywhere to go.

Posted in: on Thursday, February 18, 2010 at at 3:27 PM 1 comments  

It seems like a lot people are talking about what happened last year and what they hope will happen in the coming year. Everybody is talking mostly about the bad that happened last year...what is the deal with that. Does no one have anything good or positive to say anymore. It is getting a little sickening hearing about all the negative if you ask me. I would think that out of 365 days that most had to be good...lets see...you had your health, happiness and if you made it through the year with a job and didn't loose your house or your car and you managed to get by with paying all you bills and could say you did it all on your own, I would say that classifies as a good year.

As for me I had a great year. Brad and I are happy and healthy. We both managed to get by with out getting the flu! (knock on wood) We both managed to hang on to our jobs and pay our bills without asking for any help, even though Brad went down to 32 hours a week. We managed to put away a little money in our savings. Didn't get to take a trip any where, but that is okay. We still had fun being home with family and friends. After all it is all those little moments that make life great right!

And all I can ask for in 2010 is for all those same things again! I am hopping for happiness and health for us and that we both keep our jobs! And that we can have many, many, many more of those little moments that make up life!

Posted in: on Wednesday, January 6, 2010 at at 1:12 PM 4 comments  

Posted in: on Wednesday, December 30, 2009 at at 1:28 PM 0 comments  

I am officially in the last month of pregnancy and I hate it. It is just so exhausting and uncomfortable and painful. I know people tell you the last month is the worst but seriously, this bad, is not what I expected. I have had a few meltdowns, which I think are to be expected since I am pregnant and Brad has handled them all great! I am just so excited, anxious, nervous, and overwhelmed all at the same time it was inevitable that I would have the breakdowns. It is nice to know that Brad is feeling the same too. I am constantly tired. I sleep like crap because I so uncomfortable. Though since she has dropped a little more I can breathe a little easier at night.

I had my 36 week checkup today with Dr. Susa and of course everything is great. I am topping in at 180 lbs, which puts me at a weight gain of 30 lbs. Not bad for always eating like a pig :) Samantha's heartbeat is 144 and she is constantly active. I feel like she never sleeps! Dr. Susa did an exam and she is the head down position pushing on my cervix. He said my cervix is very soft, which is excellent! All the more ready to dilate! The Braxton Hicks contractions are happening more frequently which I know means the real thing is soon going to happen. Also my stomach measured in at 37 cm, which correlates with how far along the baby is, which is another thing that says she is running a head of schedule! Thank god!

Posted in: on Tuesday, December 29, 2009 at at 1:18 PM 0 comments